I wish someone knew me inside-out.

So there would be no need to explain something. they'd just know. they would just understand.

things just aren't that easy though.

currently listening to Alicia Keys: "Like you'll never see me again" but live. Mmmm.

i'm tired. im exhausted. God, help me get through these next two days. especially these two.

grateful for life.

Is it just me, or are there a lot of hearts aching right now?

a friend just called me crying, and im not gonna publicize people's business. and i wont. no need to.

but damn. this whole week. i swear. theres just so much stress with school and personal issues.
its such a hard week mayn.

i swear, ive come across three friends crying, and needing someone to talk to this week.
people are just unhappy right now, i guess.

or somethings bothering each of us. but theres no reasoning behind it.
its just a feeling of the moment and we dont know what it is.
or somethings bothering us. and we really want to hear something, but we dont receive it.
or thought it was going to be different this time.

were all looking for something. something to spark happiness.

what is going on?

damn shit. really tough week.
lets get through this together.

Why is it that i can't seem to find someone to count on?

Please let this work. i really really reallly want it to. PLEASE?

Spur of the moment.

i want to live for someone who needed me. how endearing would that be.

i like remembering small things/details when remembering a past occurrence.
ike he/she said that, did that. that's why i remember...blah blah. that leads to blah blah.

haha. yeah.

girls relate with one main thing, their heart. fear to have it broken, fear of letting their guard down to someone who WASN'T worth it.

best friend. big word. in my mind.

when you start your day early, there's SO MUCH to do in a day. i like that.

Don't waste time.

Do i know that everything's okay?

No.

I like that i take the first steps and a risk because if i didn't, none of it wouldn't have happened.

Random thing to mention: sometimes i wish people didnt care about money. kinda sick of hearing about it.
what happened to not being materialistic?


grateful for everything right now. wanna make the best out of it. live in the moment fsho.

Do for good.

throughout my whole life, ive been raised to please others first. and i learned that from my momma.

and i realized....

thats the one and only main thing that sparks my happiness. no joke, no lie. the truth.

you know that common saying where u should do something that makes u happy first, and stop worrying about pleasing others? [well thats mainly w lifelong careers] but im applying this with my joy i get as a person.

i really do get happy if i see someone happy. i feed off of it. 

ill continue later. just got majorly distracted. and now lazy.

Christmas lights and acoustics make me feel so warm during this time.

excitement. relaxation. xmas break. holidays. enjoyment.

cant wait.

If this shit fucking ends up working out,

I'D BE THE FUCKING ILLEST GIRLFRIEND EVER. HAHAHAHHAHAHA.

HELLA DETERMINED.

My heart just feels hella GOOOOOD.

did i just let my whole guard down?