Better :]

TOOODAYYYY.

I don't wanna lose people.
Realized paranoia is the cause of all my problems/arguments.
Weather was beautiful today.
I fucking love the wind. 
No words have to be said. You can just tell by body language to determine a person's mood.
Today had goods and some downs.
but balance is all you need.
Very nice to take me in today and actually CHILL with me. Very nice.
Nervous, anxious, excited. Sleepover perhaps?
Music soothes my soul.
Craving for adventure and even more spontaneity.
Keep feeling like there's always gonna be more and more to take on.
I'm not done.
Keep persisting til I'm satisfied or feel accomplished/finished.

I keep getting scared my procastination is something hella ugly to him and turns him away.

I want to sleep so bad...:'[

I'm so exhausted to the point that I'm actually crying because I'm so tired.

Barely catching up on eating,
need to catch up on sleep,
being sick for a while, 
finish building this bunk bed frame all by myself,
it's so draining, my hands are blistered,
finishing my chem hw, and that stupid lab, which i dont even know how to do,
doing my comms speech that i need to make up on,
the emotional wear from other people,
driving so much,
i'm just tired.

i wanna sleep away and just fall asleep under the stars.
and relax.

thats why i always choose to relax,
i hate the feeling of worry when im stressed and just exhausted.

i want to rest so bad. but i have obligations and duties i have to do.

There's nothing like actually being there, wherever you'd like to be. Cause it's the real thing/experience. You can touch, feel it, grasp it.

R O L L E R S K A T I N G.

*mouth waters*

i get hellllllla anxiety whenever i think i can go. don't let me down. let me goooooo. get that rollerskating high. haha. :] i need to get it and be away. can't focus.

If I tie my hair around you, that means i'm COMPLETELY comfortable.

I just want to spend the day with you. The weather is SO nice!

I can't believe it's been half a year. Happy 6 months baby. I wish I couldve talked to you more today. But thank you for treating me better than anyone else could. I actually want to come to you when I need comfort/support.