Today i was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO antsy.

i had hella energy and was hyped up. and ready to take on something. and just do shit. go on an adventure.
but no one was available. i didnt even know where all the energy came from. i hadnt even eaten yet.
and i was hella rushed in the morning doing one thing to the next. maybe that's what started it.
then the whole day. just been shaky and bouncing around.
hopefully i did good on my gazillion chem quiz/tests today. eep.

i want to do something.

hopefully this bay trip works out on saturday. i'd be so happy. for the longessssst time, ive been craving a road trip. those ride homes, ykno, with people, enjoying memories, that quiet, long nap -time ride home. it just gives me a warm feeling.

ive been craving for it. it puts my heart to contentment. and its something new too.

lately...im just missing friends to make memories/adventures with.
theyre all non-existent when it comes to that relationship, because it either isnt cool anymore, people consumed by work, just acquaintances, or people moved on/grew up, or got boyfriends and girlfriends that take up all their time and emotions. see i have one, but i still have my own life. im not controlled.
but anyways. i miss just fucking hella spontaneity, not knowing what to do, doing something or nothing with friends, and just chilling.
chilling is what i do best.

knowing i spent my time with friends, even though we might not have done anything, does not seem like a waste to me at all.
i mean i really could say it was my time's worth. i live for that shit.
that shit makes ME happy.

i miss it. done. enough said from me.