i KNOW we all have to move on.

but right now. im not liking change.

its like basically to me, oh forget about this person and say goodbye. and dont even bother to keep in touch.

thats harsh, right?
but it's life. yes, yes, yes...i know..

and thing is i CAN move on, but sometimes its just a preference that i'd rather keep people IN my life.

like right now, looking back at pictures, it makes me remember like damn, i used to HELLLLA talk to this person. what happened?
oh that's right. we all moved on with our lives.
i'm such a girl. when it comes to this type of stuff.


but damn, reminiscing on old pictures just brings back really good memories and all the fun things i used to get myself into. haha. just one thing after the next. and all the groups. lol and all the asians. i miss it.

but hey, all i can say right now, well ever...is

"i miss it."

cant do much about it except to miss.
anyone else would say, get over it. but you know what, just lemme feel what i feel. shut the fuck up.

and the other day, i went to go chill at the creek/lake with my friend, and she was just having a bad week. and its just crazy to think and look where we are now. ive known her since i was 5 years old. and to see how we grew up and came to be, i mean, even though we kind of separated for a while at different schools, it shows shes a real legitimate caring friend because were still in each others lives. im happy about that.
but damn to look where we are now. like holy shit. haha.

we grown. hahah fuckkkk.

ionno. its just something to think about. cuz i remember being young and looking up at other 18 year old people. it had just seem different.
i cant believe IM 18. my brothers gonna be 18 in two years.
hes gonnna be old. im gonna be old.

this shits weird.

well this...is...life.

lets hope i do well. lets see what comes my way.

ahhhh.....